Through the years I've come across
Many games I've won and lost
Time goes by, yet I remain
With these tears I can't explain
In a time when all was new
All these tasks I had to do
No one asked and no one stared
When it happened, no one cared
In another life
On another day
Searching for the truth
Or better lies to say
Asking for it all
Waiting for a sign
Was this a mistake
Or was it by design
Through an open door
Handing me the key
What am I to do
And what am I to be
Should I turn away
Should I run and hide
Or should I carry on
And see what lies inside
Through the door I try to find
All my thoughts I'd left behind
Cast away without regret
Now returns the lost duet
Running for the door
It's closed and locked away
Confronted with myself
And thoughts that disobey
What have I become
Is this really me
There's so much left to do
And so much left to see
How did this begin
Where did I lose control
This was not my cause
This was not my goal
Is it worth the cost
To deal with what's inside
Would anybody care
If I laid down and died
Through the haze I see myself
For the first time
Without knowing
Is there anyone left
Will I fade away
Or will I keep on going
Life rushes back
The feeling returns
My memories flood
The pain still burns
Fighting for a chance
To just turn back the page
Trying to resist
The urge to disengage
Waking from a trance
Holding back the screams
Gasping for my breath
Forcing back the dreams
Struggling to hang on
To all that I hold dear
Forcing myself up
To deal with all my fear
Crawling to the floor
Cold and full of pain
Taking all my strength
Too much to sustain
Looking at myself
With someone else's eyes
It finally came too late
I finally realize
